Back To Work

Hey All!

A long holiday weekend for me! Boyfriend spent the whole time with us. Was nice as usual to get to spend some time with him and my daughter.

I just hate coming back to work!! Especially after a long weekend. I haven't rested much, either. The whole weekend, I'm cooking, and cleaning, and taking care of everfyone, etc. Which is no problem for me, but I'd like to get a break once in a while.

I miss my family already ( Boyfriend and Daughter). The apartment is always very empty when he leaves.

I also could barely sleep last night. Was too busy having nightmares about my psycho ex, and what would hnappen if he would get out of jail. Sucks big time.

I mean, it may be hard for some people to fathom this, but....
I actually have someone out to kill me and my family. I have to constantly look over my shoulder, worry about if someone is following me. Hoping that I don't lead them to the ones I love and care for.

The police, and all the investigators told me what the arsonists came for that day, and that we were lucky we weren't there.

I just can't believe that he's so crazy,so obsessed with me, that he would hire someone to do this, to come and murder us.

I'm usually okay, but sometimes, late at night when I am alone, it gets to me.

Hello To All Abroad!

Once in a while I take a glance at my Extreme Tracker, to see where everyone is coming from.
It's so very interesting to me to see so many diferent people!
There are people from Mexico, Austria, Singapore, Canada, and more.
I really do appreciate each and every one of you, for stopping by.

But I'd also like to find out who you are, so please post comments often, or send me emails. I don't mind at all.

I'm frankly bored as hell at work, so I can write back if needed.

Thanks Again!

Love,
Blondie

Bills, Bills, Bills $$$

I'm so frustrated lately with my finances! I have so many expenses and bills to pay, and no money to pay them. I even had to bum money off my boyfriend for groceries.

It's just getting worse lately, that's all. I can't help but wonder how it will be in the near future. And it doesn't help with gas prices rising, among many other things.

Everything is going up in cost, because of the rising prices of gasoline. Delivering goods costs more and more. And I have the bad feeling that it's not going to get any better.

Talk Of A Lifetime

Well, my boss called me here at the office this morning. Finally the talk I knew that was coming. She basically told me that if I don't step it up, then I'm outta here, and that she is tired of defending me.

Every morning I come into this hell hole, at 7 am, and work my ass off from the moment I sit my ass in this chair. Yeah I take a few minutes to write my blog, but what they don't know won't hurt them.

AND, I don't even get paid from 7am until 8am! There are NO BENEFITS, either. No health insurance, no stock options, no 401K, not even vacation days earned! At least not for me. Everyone else here makes at least twice what I do, and has full benefits.
I know life is never fair, but this is BS! What else should I do?

I'm definitely going to step up the job hunting. The only problem is that I need a job with better pay. And thanks to good ole' George W., that's becoming harder every day.

Cool Breeze, Colder Water

Well, My Boyfriend took my daughter and I to Ocean City this Saturday.

It was a very nice place, a lot of people for this time of year. There was even a muscle car show, a lot of nice cars to see. The water was way too cold to get in, but it was nice to lay out, and play in the sand.

I am so grateful that he took me, we are hoping to go back alone during the week that my Daughter has her vacation away from school.

I had a really great time, and my daughter did too. Brought home a really cute pink Ocean City Maryland T-Shirt!

Had an altogether okay weekend, too much arguing over stupid shit!

Yucky Day

It's a cold, wet, rainy, dreary day here in Baltimore. I am running very late for work this morning! The commute was dreadful. Stop and go all the way.
I look like a wet, blonde rat.
Had an argumentative night with the boyfriend. I was in a great mood. My daughter and I couldn't wait to see him. But as soon as he walked in the door he started up with that whinny ass attitude of his.
So that went on for about 2 hours, then we left. I'm not dealing with it. We haven't seen him in a week, the least he could have done was say " Hello, Honey! How was your day"!
This is never the case.

Hopefully we'll still be going to Ocean City this weekend. It will be a first for both my daughter and myself. And I'm hoping it's not raining!

Thank You!

I just wanted to drop a quick note to everyone, regarding the post of today, and comments, etc. Thanks so much all of you I love hearing all your comments, whether they be negative or positive. It's very nice to know that people are out there reading. And when Jimmy, and I say Ghetto, we DO NOT mean only people of African American origin. We mean people who act terrible, leave awful messes, who are rude, etc. White people, Asian people, Indian people, EVERYONE can be ghetto at times. We do not at all mean to offend.
I mean considering that my best friend is gay, etc! I myself am one of the least prejudiced people you will come by. So please, don't be too harsh!

Thanks Again!
Love Ya Toots!

Blondie

Workin 9 to 5, Darlin Tryin To Make A Livin'

Last night was one of the worst nights at work I've ever had. I was off from my day job, so I couldn't post.

I had one of the worst, in the hole, sections that a person could have! Twas fundraiser night. And I was told I would make descent money!

Of course, gullible me, believed it!

I had a party of around 30 people. The most ignorant, ghetto ass people I've had in a while, 3 women with their 10 kids each! AWFUL!
They wanted drinks constantly, as soon as I cleared the plates, lo and behold when I returned, the tables were stacked.

They left food and ice cream all over the floors and tables, and even managed to use all the napkins, and steal a couple salt/pepper shakers in the process!

When they finally left, I was overjoyed! I went back to my section, hopefully to find money.

All I found was a tip tray with a single, dirty old penny placed onto it.

I was enraged! I asked around, and was told by many other servers they could put me on minimum wage for the night. And of course Lisa, the manager who hates me with a passion that I cannot explain, refused. And added a bit of snappy attitude to boot!

I finally started to clean my section, and of course 2 chairs happen to fall on my arm, causing a pretty big bump! Last night it wasn't so bad, but this morning it's all lumpy and purple! And yes it hurts!

I broke into tears, in the middle of my section. It was not worth my time to be there last night, to be quite honest. The only reason I didn't scorn Lisa, evil manager bitch, and walk out was for Jimmy. I don't want to leave a bad impression.
I could have been at home, spending time with my daughter, who I am lucky to sometimes get a few hours a day to see, before I drop her off at daycare.

And it still bothers me how the hell people such as my customers, and Evil Manager Bitch, can treat people in such a way. People who give you good service, and people who are SO DAMN NICE to you, no matter how nasty you are to them.

Hopefully next week will be better for me!

Officially A Fag Hag!

Well last night I had to lie in order to get out and hit the town with my good friend Jimmy. I was supposed to be working, tee hee hee, naughty little me!

We had a blast! It was so nice to get out without my daughter or boyfriend. I love them both dearly, but it's been at least 2 years!

We went to some bars that Jimmy goes to, the ones I have heard so much about. And it's nice to put pictures to all these memories and stories. It was so nice to talk with Jimmy normally, out of work, not around other people we know. We are so unthreatining to each other, and we get along well, so it works out.

I also had too much to drink. Last night it was a nice buzz, this morning, I feel like I'm going to puke! Yuck!
But that doesn't matter. I had a great time, and I am so thankful to have a friend like him.
JImmy, next time's on me!

No Offense, But Men Can Be Such Asses!

Well, this weekend was good and bad. It was nice that my boyfriend spent the weekend over, but it was BAD that he decided to freak out at the last minute and forbid me to dance! He even said he would break up with me, that it's so awful, etc. I tried my damndest to explain it all to him, etc. With NO LUCK!

Then on Sunday he tried to ruin my plans with Jimmy, to go out tonight. He got really defensive and jealous. Asking me if I was sure he was gay!
I mean can you believe this? I had no clue he had all this in him!
Jimmy: We are still going out tonight, I just told him we hadn't made plans yet, because I didn't know if I was working or not.

I'm so frustrated right now, it's unbelievable! And now I have no clue what else to do with myself!

Better Mood, TGIF!!!

I have hardly ever said TGIF! But today deserves it! Yesterday I was literally about to pass out at my desk from exhaustion. I couldn't even keep my eyes open, even while walking!

Luckily last night my boyfriend came over, and I am thankful for another boost of energy. I needed it, for he fucked my brains out many times! lol! Sorry if that's too much info. But hey everyone does it!
He's also spending the weekend with us, more fun to come.
Cannot wait till Monday! And Jimmy, please don't hold it against me if I have to cancel at the last minute do to my psycho Mum! PS: I love being your fag hag! lol!

Walls Getting Smaller

Well, no luck with the club, they already hired a bunch of girls for the new bar, and sent a bunch more to two other local clubs! So backup is on it's way!

In the form of my good friend Jimmy! He's going to help me look for work. But it's very hush-hush for us. Have to spare our loved ones! lol! Going out Monday night!
Wish me luck! I just have to learn to come out of my shell.

I've had two terrible nights at work. On Tuesday I was in a bad section, and made around $10. Last night I was in a really bad section, then moved up into a better one, and STILL only made around $10! I honestly cannot afford to make that kind of money. I need big bucks!

I'm hoping that I'll get hired at a nice club, and make damn good money, so that I can at least pay my bills!

Risque Kind Of Girl

Well, it's become inevitable that I'm going to loose my job here at the lemon factory. So I'm looking for work elsewhere.

My Mother warned me on Sunday ( Who also works for our boss company) That I am highly expendable, and to watch my ass.
And lately things here have been stressed, more than usual. They don't even introduce me to the investors, and "important people" that come in to visit.
They also hired a temp girl to "help me out". But when they introduced HER, they basically told them she did my job.

Later Sunday evening my boyfriend and I were driving down Rte. 40, and there was a Now Hiring sign at this Exotic Dance club.
We have always joked about me being a dancer, especially after I lost all that weight.

This time I'm serious. I have an appt.. To go see the woman who does the hiring.
I heard they make good money. But knowing my luck I won't get the job, and they won't like that I can only work weekdays/day shift.

Wish me luck everyone! Try not to judge me too harshly.

It's ME!

Hey all!

Well, Friday night was grand! Boyfriend and I ended up going to a restaraunt closer to home. There was a game downtown, and we heard BAD things about the other.

It was a very nice place, with a fireplace, and candles,etc. Very Romantic. I was suprised he passed up going to a spotier joint! Very sweet of him. Things like this make me realize how lucky I am to have him in my life, and how much I love him.

I hope it never ends!

I'm even blonder than before! Jimmy, baby, I hope you like it! Oh how I've missed being blonde! lol!
I wish I could post more pics, but it's frankly not possible! I have limited technology, maybe my good friend Jimmy could help? Who knows!

My daughter gave me the cutes gift! Her daycare helped her make an imprint of her little hand on clay! It's so cute, and I couldn't imagine a perfect gift!
You never realize how much you will love your children until it happens. An oh how I love her, with a passion that will never ever die.

Hope everyone had a fun filled Mother's Day!

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Unforgettable Quotes:

President Bush talking about the Cinco De Mayo party being held at the White House:

WASHINGTON (Reuters) - President Bush joked about hosting the White House Cinco de Mayo party on Wednesday, May 4, saying, "Next year I'm going to have to work on my math."

"The way I see it is mi casa es su casa (my house is your house)"

And YOU may have helped elect him!

The Lemon Tree Grows

The company that I work for is expanding. They finally hired a new person to help out. And it's about damn time! See we are a small company, less than 10 of us in the office. And all of us do everything here. Take me for example:
I handle the company's shipping account, process purchase orders, work on spreadsheets, make phonecalls to market our product, etc.

It's all so tiring! Literally as I write I am surrounded by a sea of yellow boxes that need to be shipped. Yuch!

I'm hoping they keep me around for a while, I do like the company, just most of the people in it are ignorant as shit, and hate my guts!

Happy/Unhappy

Well: I'm going to try and enlighten everyone into the world of a woman. Most women have a "Pregnancy Scare" every month or so. And It's completely normal.

I haven't had one of these in ages, but this month I was completely freaking out.
I seriously thought I was. By how I was feeling, what I wanted to eat, etc.

I would think to myself, will this time around be normal for me? See last time I found out I was pregnant with my daughter,I found out the father was a deranged, psychotic drug addict. Who was obsessed with me, but then would turn around and beat the shit out of me.

To this day, I still have to watch my ass, look over my shoulder, etc. Scary!
But the calm has come, and I feel safer nowadays.

I would have been happy either way, but it's just not my time right now to have another child.

Daily Reads

Thought I'd try something new for a change, and give everyone a break from my whining!

Here is one of my personal favorites:

And he that shuts Love out, in turn shall be Shut out from Love, and on her threshold lie Howling in outer darkness. Not for this


Was common clay ta‘en from the common earth


Moulded by God, and temper‘d with the tears


Of angels to the perfect shape of man.

Tennyson

Ms. Thing is Back!

I'm finally starting to feel like myself today. This weekend I was able to do my hair, closer to the blonde I used to know. Paint my nails, etc. I also bought two new pairs of stilletto's. I wear them every day, and desperately needed more.

And of course, I'm dressed head to toe in hot pink! Oh joy! My life would be much more dull without the passion for pink!

Had a great weekend. Didn't get much rest, but I was finally able to spend time with my daughter and boyfriend. I'm content. But I don't want to jinx it, knowing my luck, something will explode in my face.

I don't think I have to work tonight, really am not up for it.