Sick Sick Sick!

I'm sick of being sick! I have yet another cold/flu virus thingy. This is the worst possible week that it could have happened on! My boss went on vacation and left me in charge of the business, so it's not like I can take off for a few sick days. Hell, I don't even have sick days earned yet! So I literally would be screwed either way.

On top of it my daughter has the same virus. I really hate it when she is ill. I just hate to see her suffer! Hopefully it won't last very long.

I have been a bit stressed out lately (more than usual) and unfortunately it's coming out all on M. I've been real bitchy at times, yelling and snapping and spiteful at others. I'm just frustrated. Between the crunch time and 90 day review that is coming up at work, worrying about day to day bills and housework, and trying to plan/afford a trip to New Mexico, it's really all starting to get to me.

Plus...usually by this time each year I have already started tanning and hitting the gym super hard, to which we cannot currently afford. I get a lot of stress relief from the treadmill, and from the relaxation of UV Rays. So this really sucks. Luckily, I can still get my nails and waxing done. Two things I cannot live without. And I consider myself lucky to be able to afford the occasional haircut.

Which brings me to the next chapter. My hair. I'm sorry Charro, I'm sorry Jimmy! Please don't hate me, or yell at me. For I have done enough crying on my own on this subject!!

I got into another bad box of bleach. I went to lighten my hair again this weekend, and it didn't take well at all! It turned hideous colours such as pumpkin orange and banana yellow!! So, it lead to drastic measures. I am no longer a blonde, again! You can still see the golden shimmer that once was underneath this ash brown coloured hair. It is wretched. I cannot stand it. And now I must wait until it is healthy once more. Sadness all around. I am in mourning.

Are All Attorneys Assholes?

I swear to god attorneys piss me off! It seems like every time I come in contact with them they are always so rude, and they act as if they are better than all of us.

Lately I have been researching trying to change my daughter's name. The court system makes it so difficult! I won my own custody case all by myself, no attorney needed, but the change of name process is dreadful to say the least.

They require you to notify the biological sperm donor/defendant of the name change. If he contests, than your motion is denied. If he does not answer to the notify, then I might have a chance through claiming exhaustive efforts, etc. And I have to do all of this while trying not to release our address/location, which means I have to file a motion to seal our address. They might or might not grant it. But c'mon! This guy is psycho!!You would think they wouldn't want this to turn into a murder trial! I despise the legal system. But then again, it gets my blood pumping, I want to be apart of it all, just not from this angle.

I have learned through trial and error (formerly trying to do this on my own, and all of my motions being denied), and from good advice from the judges and chambers that I must hire an attorney. It sucks. It really sucks. So now I have to try to come up with 1500 dollars (100 retainer, plus 200 an hour) to hire one of these holier than though assholes.

If there are any religous people reading this, please start praying for me! We need all the help we can get!

It's 10:00a and I'm already bored out of my mind. My boss left until later on today, and I really don't have very much work to do.

I've been super lazy lately. I feel that I barely have enough time to do anything. The ktchen is a mess! There are newspapers everywhere, and bills that have to be filed away. I have got to clean and organize the bathroom. I haven't weighed myself at all this week. I just now started taking all my pills again. (Vitamins, allergy, etc.) I have to find time and money to go join the gym, and schedule my sessions of tanning/excercise, etc.

But enough of what I'm not doing, and onto what I have done...

So, last night was weird. I went over to my little brother's new apartment. He lives with his roommate, the roommate's girlfriend, and her two kids. The apartment is kinda empty, and it feels sad. None of them are working, probably haven't in weeks. None of them seem to care thta they have bills to pay, and two young children to watch over. It was just weird. I think my brother was a little nervous that I was there for some reason. So I spent a few minutes chatting them all up and telling them to get off their asses and go find jobs. It was really depressing!

Wired

Well, I'm finally on the web from home! Finally, not having to worry about blogging at work!
I am so very happy!

Everything has been going great lately. M has only got a week or so left at his old apartment. My hair keeps getting lighter and lighter as it gets warmer and warmer.

Allthough, there are still worries. I haven't heard from my little brother in about two weeks. He owes me over $600 for his cell phone bill, and $600 for rent from before he moved out. His cell was turned off for non-payment, so I haven't talked to him. I have to go over to his apartment tonight to see how he is doing, and to collect the debt, hopefully. I'll be happy if he is even home!

Wish me luck!

Windy Day!

Today is so very cold! We have had a few nicer days here in Baltimore, with temps above 50 degrees! I thought that all my praying for Spring to come was paying off!

No such luck! It sucks, I am so ready to go shopping for cute clothes for spring/summer! Charro and I have a shopping date coming up, I cannot wait!

I have been super-lazy lately! I haven't been keeping track of my health. So finally, I bought some NV last night, because they took TrimSpa off the market for obvious reasons. Hopefully it will be just as good/better. I logged back into fitday.com, and wrote down my login info to take home with me. I must weigh myself tonight (have to do it before M gets home)!

I also realized last night how bad I am with my spending! I went out for gas and ice cream and came back with a bill from Walgreens of over $60! M took my bank card away from me, thankfully! I'm going to have to be extra careful with it when I go with Charro. And luckily, I don't have to worry about spending too much with it. I'm only going to go to my mani-pedi, then go straight home.

In a few months it will all be okay if I slip up a little, but right now we are trying desperately to pay off all our debtors. I feel so horrible for spending so much money last night. It meant more work for M, in making him have to balance out our finances, checkbook, and change around our payment arrangements. Sorry my sexy scientist! You must spank me, I've been so very, very naughty!

xoxo

Blondie

Still Here

Well, I'm sitting here working, wishing this damn agonizing pain would go away. I ran out of painkillers on Sunday, and just now got some back. But I swear I am getting immune to it! I am praying that it will relieve this! I go back March 1st to get checked out and get some more work done. I hope that it will not be nearly as traumatic!

I was such a pig today! In addition to my Latte, I just had to get one of those breakfast sandwiches. So many calories! Yuch! And the strange thing is that I don't even like them that much! I have to start bringing my yummy yogurt again, much healthier!

My teeth hurt! I am so taking another Vicadin if this crap doesn't kick in within 30 minutes! It feels like my jaw is being pulled out of my freaking head! I guess I should tell my dentist that!!??

This weekend was HUGE!!! M has finally moved most of his stuff into my apartment! Yay! Finally! There were some definite tensions and spats, though. It was stressful and joyous and tiring all at the same time. He has two more weeks to transition the rest of the stuff into my/our apartment. This is going to be a roller coaster ride!

I cannot believe I am letting a man move in with me! I love him so much! He does make me very, very happy! lol! (wink, wink, very dirrty thoughts). Kidding! It's SO more than that!

Got to get back to work, unlike some lazy ass people that I know, S! (Not to mention any names)!

And, I believe it is officially time to STOP praying that Britney Spears will ever get her shit together. I would go absolutely mad if I shaved my head, my hair is apart of my livelyhood. PLUS, she's not even sporting it! She's trying to cover it up with bad, cheap wigs. Which proves she has gone insane, and is under the influence of something !

Still Here

Well, I'm sitting here working, wishing this damn agonizing pain would go away. I ran out of painkillers on Sunday, and just now got some back. But I swear I am getting immune to it! I am praying that it will relieve this! I go back March 1st to get checked out and get some more work done. I hope that it will not be nearly as traumatic!

I was such a pig today! In addition to my Latte, I just had to get one of those breakfast sandwiches. So many calories! Yuch! And the strange thing is that I don't even like them that much! I have to start bringing my yummy yogurt again, much healthier!

My teeth hurt! I am so taking another Vicadin if this crap doesn't kick in within 30 minutes! It feels like my jaw is being pulled out of my freaking head! I guess I should tell my dentist that!!??

This weekend was HUGE!!! M has finally moved most of his stuff into my apartment! Yay! Finally! There were some definite tensions and spats, though. It was stressful and joyous and tiring all at the same time. He has two more weeks to transition the rest of the stuff into my/our apartment. This is going to be a roller coaster ride!

I cannot believe I am letting a man move in with me! I love him so much! He does make me very, very happy! lol! (wink, wink, very dirrty thoughts). Kidding! It's SO more than that!

Got to get back to work, unlike some lazy ass people that I know, S! (Not to mention any names)!

And, I believe it is officially time to STOP praying that Britney Spears will ever get her shit together. I would go absolutely mad if I shaved my head, my hair is apart of my livelyhood. PLUS, she's not even sporting it! She's trying to cover it up with bad, cheap wigs. Which proves she has gone insane, and is under the influence of something !

Ouch!

It's Day 13! And it's Friday!

M and I are high tailing it to The Baltimore Comedy Club again tonight! My Mum is of course taking my daughter for the weekend. We are going to get the rest of M's things out of his old apartment this Saturday. I am so excited!

And I know Godzilla (crazy soon to be ex-roommate) will be thrilled! (lol, NOT!)

My mouth/teeth hurt like hell. I had an emergency dentist appointment yesterday, and to my surprise, they had to take two of my teeth out! Luckily for me, they were both molars!
But still, this was the most scariest experience ever! Worse than childbirth! I was totally freaking out! I called M and told him what was up, and what my options were, etc. I wish he could have been there! I was kicking and screaming and crying like a little baby!

Day 5

Today is day 5! I got a really sweet "Good Luck" from M today. He makes me so happy! It's the little things that count. He always comes up with little ways to surpise me.
So, the cravings are going down, I only get momentary ones. I believe my lungs are starting to clean themselves up.

It's almost V Day!! I cannot wait! I've got to get M something, and I have the perfect gift in mind. He'll be mad that I spent money, but he is so worth it! lol.

I'm still sick as hell today, worse in fact. My throat is killing me.

I got a wonderful surprise in the mail last night...

A check for $250 dollars~! Woo Hoo! It was from my rental agency, because I had referred my little brother, etc. So, we are going to use the money for when we go to the Baltimore Comedy Club. I cannot wait, and free tix always kick ass!