Here I go again on my own

Well, yesterday was the first day of my new job! I absolutely love it! The only bad thing about it is the parking! It costs about $400 a month! So I searched around for a better dedal with no luck. I have decided to tfake the bus.
No offense to anyone but I DREAD taking the bus again. I don't like to be around people that much. And I also familiarize the bus with one of my psycho ex-boyfriends. So it scares the shit out of me! But it's going to save me a ton of money in gas and parking, so what the hell, I'll give it a shot.

Like magic my boyfriend immediately began to be nice and kind and sweet to me again when he found out I got the "better paying" job. I swear sometime.. If my daughter wasn't so attached, and I didn't love him so damn much, I'd leave him in a heartbeat.

On a much more depressing note... One of our pet chinchillas, (who was attacked by the other chins the night we brought her home) who we have been fighting for to save her with surgeries, medicine, and lots of love, finally gave up last night.
We took her to an appointment to get her stiches finally removed, she was doing good. Except there were problems. Her skin was not growing back properly, so they had to take off some of the scabs to let them regrow. When they took the stiches out, she had large, painful open wounds.

She was fine when we left the animal hospital. But when we brought her home, and gave her the medications, she went into shock. I had to rush her all the way back. She was unresponsive, and struggling to breathe. This poor little chinchilla had fought so damn hard for her life. We had been there the whole time, and had done more for her than most would. Thousands of dollars, and countless hours nursing her back to health were all gone now. My boyfriend decided to not let her suffer any more, she was going downhill fast. He decided to have her euthanized.

It was a very tough decision for him to make. He loves animals, and this was the sweetest one of them all. I have never, ever seen anyone cry that much. He could not stand to be there while the put her to sleep. But I had to. For myself, and more importantly, for her. Even though it was all over in a matter of seconds, I stayed there with her for over an hour. I cannot believe she is gone. I miss her so very much.

This blog is hereon dedicated to
Muffy
12-11-2004 to 2-10-2006
We love you sweety!