Hey All!

Well, it has been way too long. I have been through so much crap in the past few months, and please forgive me for not having a computer, or any internet access. I think I'm going to find a library to go to to do my blog.

Well, I was kinda canned from the great job at the Mayor's Office. There is way to much political BS going on down there. I wasn't the first, and wasn't the last to go. Since then I have been barely making ends meet working odd little jobs for an upscale temp agency. It sucks big time, mostly because I only make about 1/3 of what I used to.

My boyfriend and I, Jason broke up months ago. I feel kinda bad because I didn't even mark the date. All I remember is that it was before his birthday, and now that I try to think about it, I don't remember if it was March or May 25th. It's sad really. It was one of those situations where he beat me to it. I was sad, I cried for one day, then sulked for one more, and that was it. Two years down the drain. The hardest part of it was my daughter. That was like her daddy. She still asks about him. For the longest time I didn't really have an answer for her. Now I do, I actually sat down with her and talked with her. And as young as she is (Only three)she understood. I'm just hoping she'll forget. She just thought of him as that because she saw other children with their fathers. So, she's over it.

I don't miss him, and I have even forgotten what he was like, what his voice sounded like, etc. I have more time to spend with my beautiful little girl. If you know me, or knew me, you should see her! lol! She's such a little supermodel! She's over half my height, long blonde hair and the bluest eyes, and so thin, lol.

After the break up I started going to this little bar that was right across the street from my gym. I think I drank all the pain away, down with the cosmos. I met a very nice, very handsome man. To my suprise he was a doctor that just happened to stroll into the bar for the first time. He's a perfect gentleman, a bit older than I. We have been dating casually since that night, about a week after the breakup. I know that it will never be serious. But I deserve to have a bit of fun.

I have seriously been thinking about going back to college. I am getting older, and my priorities have come into full view. But I have no idea how. And, finally, as everyone who knows me has told me to do, I have finally started to write a book. About me, and all the crazy ass shit that has happened.

To Jimmy: I miss you so dearly, hopefully you don't hate me too much (I'm always paranoid about that)to give me a call. Luv, Blondie.

For those of you who might still be there, thank you. I'll go to the library tomorrow to fill you in on "The Dr.".